I was speaking with a guy from Finland a few nights back. He mentioned his coming to Prague was something of a beautiful accident. I thought for a minute; I don't believe anything is an accident. If you honestly stop and think about what events brought you to that point in your present life, you would notice that way too many "accidents" had to happen. I believe in "shifting fate". Let me explain: The choices we make in our present state affect where fate leads us, but ultimately, nothing is just by accidental events.
We are all part of a design far greater than ourselves. We all have the freedom to make choices, although some may be considered "good", others "bad", both shift our fate and create who we are and who we will become. But these choices and this fate is never by mishap; I believe it's part of a greater purpose. For example: I made a choice to date someone, it didn't turn out well, but it pushed me to Prague. Where I had to make a decision about my living arrangements, and a date, and a time. Where, then, I had to "accidently" become too sick to go out and tour the city on that day, had to wake up at a certain "random" time and meet the man that lead me to write this particular blog entry. Because of these "accidents" I was given the opportunity to look at something in my life with a completely different perspective. To my point: We may feel like we are all walking around in random events, but everything in life is connected by a purpose of fate.
Nothing in life is a "Beautiful Accident", its just "Beautiful".
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Concerning Paths
Its only when you have to rely solely on yourself do you actually find who you are.
We are all walking around in a figurative dark, messy room, looking for the light. On our way we may stumble and fall over the chair in the center, but most of us pick ourselves up because if we don't we'll just be lying there, in the darkness, wishing someone would turn on that stupid light. What I mean to say is, nothing in our lives will change if we don't get up and change it. Yes, cliche, I know...but sometimes the most "superficial" cliche is quite insightful.
I believe we all really do want to find ourselves. But we don't want to be uncomfortable in the process. I'll take myself, for instance. I have no confidence and in order to balance that I thought I needed "someone special" in my life. I couldn't ever be "alone". I prayed every night to find the "love of my life" so I could just feel better, but as long as I looked, the "right" person never fell into my arms. I kicked and screamed, asking "why can't I just have what I want?"... but I didn't want to hear the answer.
This journey is not even close to over, but with every step I learn something about myself that I never knew. It's giving me the confidence to actually understand and appreciate who I am, as well as, who I should become. I was worried about coming to Prague alone, but I see value in doing the things that I am meant to do. Although, sometimes I'm not sure what they might be. I believe that if we just stop fighting about what WE want to do in life, we will actually make a difference in this world. Let me explain: We all walk around in this dark room and "God is light". If we just listen and ask for directions, we will stop running the wrong way.
Beauty and confidence lie only within understanding and following each of our own, unique paths.
We are all walking around in a figurative dark, messy room, looking for the light. On our way we may stumble and fall over the chair in the center, but most of us pick ourselves up because if we don't we'll just be lying there, in the darkness, wishing someone would turn on that stupid light. What I mean to say is, nothing in our lives will change if we don't get up and change it. Yes, cliche, I know...but sometimes the most "superficial" cliche is quite insightful.
I believe we all really do want to find ourselves. But we don't want to be uncomfortable in the process. I'll take myself, for instance. I have no confidence and in order to balance that I thought I needed "someone special" in my life. I couldn't ever be "alone". I prayed every night to find the "love of my life" so I could just feel better, but as long as I looked, the "right" person never fell into my arms. I kicked and screamed, asking "why can't I just have what I want?"... but I didn't want to hear the answer.
This journey is not even close to over, but with every step I learn something about myself that I never knew. It's giving me the confidence to actually understand and appreciate who I am, as well as, who I should become. I was worried about coming to Prague alone, but I see value in doing the things that I am meant to do. Although, sometimes I'm not sure what they might be. I believe that if we just stop fighting about what WE want to do in life, we will actually make a difference in this world. Let me explain: We all walk around in this dark room and "God is light". If we just listen and ask for directions, we will stop running the wrong way.
Beauty and confidence lie only within understanding and following each of our own, unique paths.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Ahoj, Ahoj!
I never want to leave Prague. I was transferred to a single room upstairs. I never thought I would appreciate my "own" room as much as I do now. I met a few more people from America a few days back. They are studying abroad in Vienna, Austria and traveling through Prague. Its amazing how you can meet someone who is just the same as you and lives thousands of miles away. I love meeting new people; I guess thats why this experience is working out so well for me.
I wish I could explain the beauty and magic in traveling, especially to Prague. Buildings here are from the 1300s; to touch the same stone as someone who lived over 700 years ago is a dream for me. I believe its because for that one instant you were able to cross paths with someone you've never, and will never meet. This world consists of connections; whether it be with you and the bum on the metro or with the super good-looking man from Holland...Its amazing how big, and small, the world actually is. Whatever the case, Prague's buildings don't just "tell" stories...they make you a part of them.
We are all making history. Don't let yourself die with your body.
I wish I could explain the beauty and magic in traveling, especially to Prague. Buildings here are from the 1300s; to touch the same stone as someone who lived over 700 years ago is a dream for me. I believe its because for that one instant you were able to cross paths with someone you've never, and will never meet. This world consists of connections; whether it be with you and the bum on the metro or with the super good-looking man from Holland...Its amazing how big, and small, the world actually is. Whatever the case, Prague's buildings don't just "tell" stories...they make you a part of them.
We are all making history. Don't let yourself die with your body.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Back to the Future
T-9 hours and 9 minutes until total mental liquidation! If I could choose one word to describe this past week...I am incapable of thinking of such a word; although "AHHHH!!" comes to mind. At some point I even began to believe that I would pull out enough of my hair to be considered for a rogain campaign...but I digress. Its been a total struggle getting to this point. Through sacrifice of time and money, and degredation of work and personal relationships, I'm still breathing. Although, I finally understand the figurative meaning of the "emotional roller-coaster".
But, you know, these are the moments we live for: being awkward and alone in an airport 1,500 miles away from what we consider to be "home", waiting for a flight and actually understanding what it means to finally DO something. If you take nothing else from my blog, remember this: Everyone has a drive and a purpose. We love things, we love people; we pursue things, we pursue people. But sometimes what you believe is the "best" thing [the best person] for your life, actually turns out to be the one thing that will kill you in the end. This one obsessive thing; you push and fight and try to control; because you honestly believe life, no matter how beautiful, would be cruel and dull without it. Its true, love and passion are amazing emotions, but we should strive to love and be passionate about the goals and people that won't corrode and destroy every part of us in the process. This is difficult, because in order to do this, we HAVE to give up our need for control. To my point: There were times when I didn't want to do this, when I didn't feel like there was a way out...but I have no doubt that I was meant to be here, right here, in this strange and awkwardly quiet airport seat. I don't know why, but I am happy.
But, you know, these are the moments we live for: being awkward and alone in an airport 1,500 miles away from what we consider to be "home", waiting for a flight and actually understanding what it means to finally DO something. If you take nothing else from my blog, remember this: Everyone has a drive and a purpose. We love things, we love people; we pursue things, we pursue people. But sometimes what you believe is the "best" thing [the best person] for your life, actually turns out to be the one thing that will kill you in the end. This one obsessive thing; you push and fight and try to control; because you honestly believe life, no matter how beautiful, would be cruel and dull without it. Its true, love and passion are amazing emotions, but we should strive to love and be passionate about the goals and people that won't corrode and destroy every part of us in the process. This is difficult, because in order to do this, we HAVE to give up our need for control. To my point: There were times when I didn't want to do this, when I didn't feel like there was a way out...but I have no doubt that I was meant to be here, right here, in this strange and awkwardly quiet airport seat. I don't know why, but I am happy.
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